For 10 years, I have been writing a memoir about my relationship with my son who has bipolar disorder. The book has gone through many permutations over the years as the circumstances of our lives have changed. The ending keeps evolving.
As a memoir writer and teacher I know there is no such thing as a static self and both my son and I have experienced many different “selves” during this writing. He has read parts of the manuscript, disagreed with my account of certain episodes we’ve shared, and as a result, I have made a few changes where I agreed my perception of a particular event was distorted by my lens as a therapist. But that’s the thing about memory and memoir, isn’t it? We each have our own perspective depending upon our particular emotional lens at the time.
Many of you know that my book has been rejected repeatedly by print publishers. Some editors wrote that they didn’t understand why a mother would choose to write such a book. Of course, most people who don’t deal with mental illness on a daily basis fail to understand it’s a family disorder. No one in the family is left unscathed by the misfiring of their loved one’s synapses.
My intention in writing the book has always been to give information and perhaps companionship to those who travel this same journey: parents, grandparents, siblings, spouses, children and the loved one most affected by “fire in the brain.” So I decided to self-publish just the first part of the book as a Kindle short entitled The Emergence of Bipolar Disorder: A Mother’s Perspective through amazon.com. I understand you can download it to both your Kindle and an iPad. I hope you find it of value.
- Bipolar Disorder Q&A (blogs.psychcentral.com)